February 2010
I don’t even know what to say or do anymore. It was refreshing to spend the afternoon with Ben. I just wish everything was a lot easier.
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January 2010
“And one by one the nights between our separated cities are joined to the night...”
– Pablo Neruda (via senshuk)
and this is when I stop relying on people.
““Sonnet XI”
“I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair.
Silent and starving,...”
– Pablo Neruda (100 Love Sonnets: Cien sonetos de amor) (via wearetulle)
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you...”
– Pablo Neruda
Depeche Mode: Breathe
I hate this time of the month. It makes me 10x more irritable and upset when people don’t know how to keep track of time.
Now that I remembered that I have a new short red dress that I haven’t worn, I really want to go out for Valentine’s Day. Is that bad?
Quick! Someone find me a date!
Yes?
My eyes started getting teary eyed as soon as Homecoming by The Teenagers started playing.
I miss hanging out with Ben as much as we used to before.
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I feel as if everyone is keeping important information from me, but what they need to realize is that I’m not stupid. I know when things are being withheld from me. I’m not a child they need to shelter.
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2010-1-24) →
Lil’ Wayne (108)
nevershoutnever! (21)
Greeley Estates (8)
Black Eyed Peas (7)
Richard Vission & Static Revenger (featuring Luciana) (5)
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I think that it’s time that I went back home. The lack of privacy at my sisters house is starting to freak me out. I’m surprised I lasted over a month. But since it’s impossible for me to have a proper anxiety attack here, I’m willing to pack up my clothes and go back home. I was fine before about not being able to make phone calls from here, but after last night, and with...
I thought I made it very clear what I wanted, but I don’t think I asked him what HE wanted.
damn.
Can fantasy ever become reality?
metaphoricallanguage:
Open Your Eyes - Snow...
I’m scared that the first thing I thought when I woke up was how we would be able to work past this. He’s an important part of my life and I’m not willing to give that up so easily. That’s not to say that I’m ok or over it. I’m just surprised I handled it the way that I did. I guess a part of me already knew. But a part of me also knows that he wouldn’t...
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And then I remembered...
That Nessa was the one who, after learning that Cesar & I broke up, came to my house and listened to me bitch and cry. She said all the necessary words and just listened as I tried to express, in incomprehensible words, how I felt.
I hate that she’s out of town.
'Cause love is about progress, not perfection
rootgroove:
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OHHHHH!!! I haven’t been this excited in such a long time! It’s not the best or sanest thing for me right now…well…actually…it is. It’ll be a welcome change of scenery and if it turns out that it’s not meant for me, then oh well. At least I tried. Now all I have to do is save as much money as possible because once I start, it’ll be hard to have a...
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I wish that I wasn’t selfish just so I can still keep him in my life. But whatever we had, it doesn’t work. At least not when I keep myself in the dark about him seeing other people. I get jealous easily and I’m unable to hide it. I know that he’s ok when I go out with other guys, but even then, it just doesn’t feel right to me. I use him as an excuse to push other...
You don’t understand how much life has gotten better for me ever since I moved in with my sister. Well, technically, I haven’t officially moved it. I’ve just been spending the night at her house ever since mid December. At first, my parents didn’t like it, but after my sister told them that her roommate had moved out, they approved of me being here in order for my sister...
NeverShoutNever!: I just Laugh
I wonder if he understands that the next time we talk, it’ll probably be the last time.
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2010-1-17) →
Ke$ha (92)
Lil’ Wayne (70)
nevershoutnever! (49)
Santogold (47)
LMFAO (36)
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confidence is the stain they can't wipe off
I don’t feel like my age. I don’t [normally] dress my age and I definitely don’t act my age [normally]. So today, as a form of stepping outside my box, I bought a new bra and thong. Nothing new, really. Except that it’s leopard print. I don’t know about you, but this little bit of change was huge! When I wore it earlier I felt sexy, not just cute. Who knew that a...
"First you started getting tattoos, then you...
My sister, the future corrections officer.
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The heart wants what it wants,
brain-food:
and leads the head to places it would never go.
“Childhood is measured out by sounds and smells and sights, before the dark hour...”
– John Betjeman
Ok, so this weekend was pretty darn awesome. I got to witness my sister being drunk, my ex-boyfriend got to spend the weekend with me AND I no longer have to pretend to be nice to the guy that I went to the movies with last week. Yeah, I think that my ex enjoyed being extra friendly with me a little too much.
Lil’ Wayne ft. Nicki Minaj: KnockOut
I enjoy being able to have him lay next to me without it being a problem. Whether that’s on the floor or the couch, squished in between him and the cushions. I like making my 6 year old niece beat him up even if I get hurt in the process. Even if it’s hard to explain to other people, we love what we have. No need for explanations.